Since yday I have been pondering over this and still haven't got an answer for the same. We live in a society that is so interested in others lives. And, I really hate the whole idea of not leading a life that I would want to. I am so frustrated and wanted to just let it out somehow without hurting anyone's feelings.
I don't know if I am being hard on myself or what exactly is bothering me but I am really not myself since yday. I just happened to meet this friend of mine after ages and people look at it in such a different way. We were having a good time talking about college and sipping on coffee and I was having iced tea. It was nostalgic as we spoke about college days and what each one is doing currently.
I was married and now I just want to be with like minded friends and so what if they are guys and are married. I am not looking for anything more than a good friendship and frankly speaking I would love to chat with people who you can talk about anything under the sun. I don't differentiate between genders while making friends cause all I am looking at is a good friendship. I can't believe life is so complicated and we have to think hundred times before going out with a guy friend.
I would not want to cause any more issues so I guess I would have to refrain from actually going out by myself with a guy friend. I just can't understand this and nor will I ever. I really don't know if all guys would misinterpret you or its more of what people say. Gosh! I just hate this side of the society. Its like being a girl is a crime or something and thanks to the recent events in the city we can't even lead a free life. I don't know how long I would go on like this cause I'm a kind of person who has priorities but I am a people's person too. Friends are a part of the extended family but I can no longer convince anyone as no one can really understand.
I'm just waiting to start work so that I can be occupied and married to work. So, that I don't have time for anyone except for my responsibilities & duties. Phew! thats life for me I guess cause at this point in time as no one but myself has confidence in me! I guess that would be more than sufficient for now and I don't have to prove that whatever done is in the best interest. They say that past is like ghost which haunts if you haven't learnt your lessons or not moved on. But I guess its more like a monkey on your back cause nothing seems to help. Guess I could hang on for a bit as I don't intend to hurt anyone especially my family.
I don't know if I am being hard on myself or what exactly is bothering me but I am really not myself since yday. I just happened to meet this friend of mine after ages and people look at it in such a different way. We were having a good time talking about college and sipping on coffee and I was having iced tea. It was nostalgic as we spoke about college days and what each one is doing currently.
I was married and now I just want to be with like minded friends and so what if they are guys and are married. I am not looking for anything more than a good friendship and frankly speaking I would love to chat with people who you can talk about anything under the sun. I don't differentiate between genders while making friends cause all I am looking at is a good friendship. I can't believe life is so complicated and we have to think hundred times before going out with a guy friend.
I would not want to cause any more issues so I guess I would have to refrain from actually going out by myself with a guy friend. I just can't understand this and nor will I ever. I really don't know if all guys would misinterpret you or its more of what people say. Gosh! I just hate this side of the society. Its like being a girl is a crime or something and thanks to the recent events in the city we can't even lead a free life. I don't know how long I would go on like this cause I'm a kind of person who has priorities but I am a people's person too. Friends are a part of the extended family but I can no longer convince anyone as no one can really understand.
I'm just waiting to start work so that I can be occupied and married to work. So, that I don't have time for anyone except for my responsibilities & duties. Phew! thats life for me I guess cause at this point in time as no one but myself has confidence in me! I guess that would be more than sufficient for now and I don't have to prove that whatever done is in the best interest. They say that past is like ghost which haunts if you haven't learnt your lessons or not moved on. But I guess its more like a monkey on your back cause nothing seems to help. Guess I could hang on for a bit as I don't intend to hurt anyone especially my family.
