Road we take.....

We all have our strengths and weaknesses but do we recognize them. I'm sure we all have occasions where we tend to satisfy our ego more than thinking clearly.

But I somehow cant seem to understand certain things in my life and there always have been situations I am put into which are complex for others to understand. We all want a peaceful life and no one looks at getting into a complicated circumstance/s. It is true that we tend to attract certain things subconsciously and would realize presence of certain things in our lives after a while?

Each of us are looking at having a normal life which could be with our relationships, career, money etc etc And, it seems like a crime to be able to want something in life and actually tell the people you love, about the same. They would perceive you to be selfish at that moment and a person who seems to be thinking just about themselves. I have been in situations where my values have been questioned and I really don't blame anyone for it. It actually helps me evaluate my life from various angles.

Every relationship in this world is based on expectation/s and anyone denying the same isn't honest to themselves. We have our parents, siblings, relatives, friends, colleagues etc who expect things from us even when we've set certain expectations. Is it selfish to want a nice life for yourself? Is it bad to think about yourself? I haven't really evaluated my life so much earlier but I feel the importance to do so at this point in time more so than ever.

Whenever, anyone close has told me anything really personal I have never judged them and I feel that everyone is like me. This is one of the biggest mistake I've ever made to think that people are not judgemental and would wait for sometime before coming to any conclusion. No one knows anyone completely and no matter how straightforward you are its impossible to talk about everything you feel or want in life. So, it is wrong to expect from others not to be judgemental as every person is in someway judging someone. More often than not it is usually another person than the situation itself. This is something that ruins any relationship on this planet.

Having unreasonable expectations in life or expecting others to fulfill them for you is just another excuse in life. I know that I am being blunt here but we all know ourselves better than anyone else so how can anyone else tell you whats best for you. I totally agree that people who love you would want to protect you and give their opinion without hesitating. I really appreciate honesty and being straightforward but not emotionally blackmailing someone to get your way.

Well, its not that I'm getting younger by the day and I have taken responsibility for each decision in my life. I don't believe in regretting but I do believe in confessing if Ive made a mistake. My ego level isn't unhealthy that would refrain me from saying that I was wrong or made a wrong choice in life.

I have made several decisions in life with best interest but I didn't realize at that point in time that lot of people were sitting there and judging me. I still end up talking to the people who have been sarcastic to me and have had several opinions about the way I handled situation/s. Well, I don't know if I prefer doing things the toughest possible way always because I tend to attract such things in life subconsciously. Well, my way of looking at such situations is totally different. I know what I want in life and hence I tend to attract those things into my life. I don't hesitate wanting certain things in my life based on the past experiences that I have had with respect to my career and relationship especially. For me these two things are really important in defining who I am. I would rather find the ways to define my life beautifully and even if I have to go through the toughest possible path I would not dread.

I believe in myself and strongly feel that I have had certain events in my life have had a very good reason for their occurrence. I don't regret any decision I have made in the past cause nothing good can come out of it. We cant expect to forgive and move on if we don't start with coming to terms with ourselves first. I would be adding more to this post as and when I do feel like.