Bitchology

I received a mail the other day from a friend and it was about a new term "bitchology" and it said finally there is a term for act of being bitchy :-) The brief summary of the mail said that a woman who stood up for herself and her beliefs is termed as a "bitch". Well, I seriously don't mind being known as one if I believe in my values and beliefs.

It is so ridiculous that the same attributes are appealing to a man and then later he hates the woman due to the same characteristics. Well, talk about being so confused that you aren't sure about why you fell in love with us :-) Come on guys you could do a lot better than this and its called growing up, see this is what i meant by "bitchology".

If I speak my mind I end up being a bitch and I don't care a tiny rat's ass :-) This is the person I am and if that bothers you baby then I cant do anything about it, LOL.

If I can do, so can you!

I had a great time last evening and glad I didn't let people from my past interfere in enjoying myself after a really long time. I've heard and experienced that people always are stuck in the past and that really doesn't help us move forward.

It is such a wonderful experience when you really don't bother about the presence of terrible people from your past. It really showed that I have not blamed myself and have realized that there is a reason for us to meet people whom we do along the way. These people make you realize the person you are and make you want to discover yourself. In fact, I am more than glad to have meet some really terrible people or rather people in terrible situations to realize that life isn't as rosy as I thought it was till a year ago.

Life has been very kind to me and obviously its God's grace and my family's prayers being answered. Their concern for me is so humbling that sometimes I totally forget about myself and do all I can to make them feel loved. I do put my foot down when it is necessary to make them understand that I am cautious of the decisions I make so that it doesn't hurt anyone especially my immediate family and of course a wonderful extension of the same.

I am at a stage in my life where I have to start all over again on the personal and professional front, I have no qualms about the same as long as I keep walking.

I didn't mean to mock at you :-(

I have this disgusting habit of imitating people especially whom I can be myself with. I have experienced this at work as well as my personal life. I probably have even heard of people speaking about this behind my back; that she always mocks at others or makes fun of people.

I didn't realize that it could hurt someone to an extent that it did this evening. I realized what my momma would always tell them that it came across as mocking rather than pulling someones leg or imitating them. I have had been in several situations with my mum where she has gotten irritated with this habit of mine. She always said that I would understand when I was at the receiving end; either someone irritates me this way or gets so angry that they speak their mind in the most effective manner.

Today is that particular day in my life that made me realize that it s unfair to imitate people or irritate them by repeating anything they've said in a similar fashion. All I want to say to my sloppy is that " I don't mean to mock at you and I'm thankful you made me realize that its a nasty habit to imitate people or copy them". Thanks sweetheart.

Trust

The most fragile thing in this world.
Something that is hard to gain,
But easy to loose,
That's when people stop believing you.

I really don't care as I will only hurt myself,
If I took everyone who didn't believe me seriously.
At the end of it all I am the one who should believe in myself,
And unless I don't do that I'll never get there.

So, I believe in myself and discover myself every single day,
Am I not glad that I do this everday.


© 2009 roshk79

Educated??

We all stress on the importance of education and as time passes there are a lot more things added to necessity of being well read. Since education means different things to each of us I would wish to list out my point of view on the same.

Education is strength which enables me with confidence and belief no matter the situation I have to face at any point in my life. Education teaches you to rely on yourself and have complete faith in your decisions/ actions. In my life I have quite a few people who genuinely care for me and I guess I am blessed in that sense. People that care for me have always been open and blatant about their opinion about certain decisions I have had to make in my life. I used to ignore them earlier when they used to initiate a discussion regarding or in some cases tell them that it is my life. However, now I am more open to have discussion with very few people about certain important decisions I would need to make in life.

My brother made me do an interesting exercise today of listing down my priorities randomly in life and it was an eye opener to me about so many things I want but unable to arrange them in a sequence. At this point in time my career is the most important thing to me and that surely figures as the 1st priority in my life. There are other things that follow like discovering myself, going on adventurous vacations, learning to play a guitar and traveling as much as possible. Surprisingly relationship didn't feature much in this list I made this morning. This actually made me realize that I would be getting into a committed relationship only once I have achieved stability on my career front as I cant give that up for anything in life. I'm too ambitious to give it up for anything and would love to have a balanced life once I am stable on the career front.

I would love to thank my bro and SIL for having a wonderful chat with me this morning. I really appreciate that and as you already know you both & Ninni mean a lot to me! Stay the same :-)